Emotions make me cry sometimes...

I often wonder how we as women deal with emotions. I have heard that we are emotional creatures, never believed in the hype though. I never thought that I was emotional. I knew I was sensitive. But not emotional. NO that’s not the same thing. My feelings always got hurt, but I never cried about it..lol… I’ve been mad as hell, and never acted on the madness. See in my world emotion is the action you take.. The physical.. If you cry a lot your emotional.. If you just pout your sensitive…If you Yell and Scream during arguments you’re emotional…If you’re like me and go into a mute state of mind you’re sensitive.. Is it just me or doesn’t that make sense..

Now add a man into my equation and it looks like this:

Before: Life + Mocha=Sensitive

After: Life + Mocha+ Sensitive/Man = Emotional

Maybe I wasn’t emotional because I never had to add in someone else’s adult personality on a daily basis. I never had to deal with being responsible for someone else’s adult feelings. I mean as humans we walk around being as cordial as we can. People piss us off everyday but the difference is we don’t deal with the same person who pissed us off for the rest of the day, watch them shower, eat, watch TV, smile ,laugh, and then get in the bed with you… So I kind of think it’s unfair to label me as emotional..lol.. YES if you have not figured out by now I have a huge problem with being called emotional… it ranks right up there with Bitch.. Wouldn’t slap you for callin me emotional, but you’d definitely get a F-you.

So now I am forced to spend my every waking minute taming my Sensitive side… Ya know tryin to squeeze a Whatever out of clinched teeth when you really want to just stomp, yell and pinch.. Sometimes I feel like Ally McBeal.. I feel like any minute a drug free Whitney is gonna sing “I get so emotional baby….” Maybe it’s a control issue.. Ya know not wanting the actions of one person determining whether or not they get to see you lose it. I honestly think some men like to see emotion.. Why.. The fix it factor.. Men want to fix everything.. and when there is nothing to fix… They create things..lol.. Ok so I am stretching but I refuse to take responsibility for my sensitive character..lol..

I hate the fact that men don’t pout..lmao.. I hate the fact that the only response to why they don’t let their emotions show is.. “You piss me off all the time, but I just let it roll right off..”.. ARRGH.. And I never pin point what it is I do that pisses him off so I can’t really continue to do what I don’t know to get some kind of satisfaction…lmao… You know the day I say “ You are emotional today” I think women all over the world will just stop and say… oh my God it happened..”… LMAO!!!! I’m stupid yall.. please over look me…

Ok back to work..